We had arrived in Lopburi, a medium-sized city in central Thailand, to study language in our first year in Thailand. During that year, our sole mode of transportation was our bikes. We rode each day to the language school and would often ride down the same streets. On one particular street, we would sometimes see a particular elderly lady sitting near one of the houses we passed. This area of town was near a number of bars and was not known as a desirable part of town. The house had the normal spirit house outside and they were often burning incense in the morning. On at least one occasion, I thought; I should try to go talk to this lady and try to share a little of the gospel with her. But then the concerns would flood in;
- You are already running late to language class. You don’t have time!
- You can barely order food at the market, how are you going to share the gospel with her.
- She is old, and probably won’t even be interested in trying to understand the foreigner speak Thai to her.
- Is it culturally appropriate for me to stop alone and talk with an elderly female in this part of town?
Then one morning, as I rode past, I noticed that the house was adorned for a Buddhist funeral, which continued for the next three days. We never saw that lady after that day, and it’s very likely the funeral we observed was for her.
It is quite likely that the lady went to a Christ-less eternity, and did not ever have the opportunity to believe the Gospel. Not because someone did not go and not because someone was not sent to preach the Gospel, but because I allowed concerns of the flesh to cast aside the leading of the Holy Spirit to share the gospel.
Now, obviously I want everyone here to believe that I am a good missionary. However, I also want everyone to be aware of and deal seriously the struggles which we all have. Maybe, you can relate with me in this experience.
Therefore, I ask that you would pray for me, and I will also pray for you!
Romans 12:1-2 says; “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”